HOLLA. June 6th.

I last posted on June 6th. Ridiculous, much?

I know I say it every.single.time. But I miss y'all so much.


I went to a blogger meetup this weekend. And met Stephanie and Rachelle. It was crazy awesome. I guess I still get to do "blogger" things even if I don't ever blog.

But if you are gonna fit in a blog post - it should be about meeting other bloggers.

I can not believe that I did not get one single freaking picture of me and steph and chell together. NOT ONE! And chell's hair was crazy cute.

I totally freaked out before with the whole what do I wear. And I was going to wear a dress but I thought it would be too dressy. They both wore dresses. hookers.

Steph and I were going to stay at the same hotel but it was crazy ghetto and I was outta there. She still stayed there. She's brave like that and apparently crackheads can be nice.

ummmm... apparently I haven't even blogged about my vacay to "water texas" (that's what G calls it).

I suck so hard.

Picture time.

I'm in the process of redoing my office at home. Maybe i'll do a post.

and tell you alllllll about water texas.

still love your face.

Hi. Long time no write.

I have no idea how long this post will be. Bear with me. Or skip it. Whatevs.

Grayson is 3.5 tomorrow. He's awesome. And adorable and full of life and personality. He has SO much energy and PERSONALITY. He's exhausting and wonderful.

I go back and forth with wanting him to be boring and normal. And this crazy awesome that he is.

I went to the DR and got new drugs. I took the Citalopram for 14 months and didn't feel like it was cutting it anymore. Or my life is a whole new level of stress now. I'm wondering if I will always be on anti-depressants.

I'm still doing 2 people's jobs and that will not be changing. Chris started his doctorate program and is working 50-60 hours a week. G is G. The house is breaking.

I'm on Effexor for 5 whole days now. We will see.

I finished a quilt and started a new one.

I never take decent pictures anymore.

I took G to the Avengers and still feel a little bad that I let my kid see a PG13 superhero movie. But he loved it and won't stop talking about it. So I guess I will feel twice as bad when I let him see it again.

new headboard (craigslist $60!) and comforter - Target

I did a 5k with my sister and her peeps

The Binky Fairy

My domain name is expired and I have to pay $10 to keep it. I should do that.

G still had a pacifier as of last Friday. He's too old. And I'm an enabler.

But the dentist said "Does he suck his thumb? He has an open bite"

And I said "Nope. " The end. I didn't mention his binky at all because I'm embarrassed that my 3 year old still had one.

I wouldn't let him have it in public. Car and home only.

But I had let it go on too long.

So we talked to Grayson about how the dentist said no more binkies. (she didn't) And we talked about the binky fairy. That if we sent the binkies to the binky fairy - she would send back a present.

He was excited about getting a present. In theory.

We went and I let him pick out a dozen balloons.

G, Chris, and I went to the park and tied all the binkies we could find to the balloons. And kept talking about them going to the binky fairy.

G let them go. And went and played.

I cried.

He has done great without it ever since. He does ask for it a few times throughout the day, but no fits and no tears.

He received Iron Man, Captain America, and a few comic books from the binky fairy.

The balloon idea was as much for me as for G. I knew that if he threw a big enough fit and I still had access to them that I would cave.

Check in. Budgeting

We are in heavy duty budget mode. Chris changed jobs. Old job - Paid EVERY friday. New - every OTHER friday. of the same week I get paid.

That means no income for 2 weeks! I had things sorted out in my head and now I have to re-sort. and it's a pain.

You know how in a relationship their should be a "saver" Nope. We suck - we are both spenders.

Now we are budgeting. And cooking. And planning.

And Chris is all "you need to break up with Sonic" and I'm all "I'll break up with you first"

Remember this post - How to buy things and hide them from your husband ?

I will be stealth spending. I'm not talking millions of dollars but I'm not giving up sonic.

i heart sonic. bacon egg and cheese toasters saved my life.

So I've been cooking things and meal planning things and avoiding grocery stores.

I hate grocery shopping. Actually it's not that bad by myself but with G - shoot me.

We cleaned out our Pantry and apparently Ramen noodles have a expiration date.

And in the case of an apocolypse - we have all the green beans and tomato sauce.

I need someone to make me one of those fancy pinterest meal-planning boards. I'm way to busy pinning to actutally do.

Game Etiquette

This is officially the dumbest post ever BUT i have things I NEED to know.

I play words with friends. scramble with friends. hanging with friends. dice with buddies.

Ok here we go - serious time - Who's is supposed to rematch? the winner? the loser? the last player?

I NEVER rematch only because I'm super lame.

I seriously think "maybe they are SO over playing with me." or "they have way cooler things to do than play this dumb game"

 (i have "with friends" self-esteem issues)

What do you think?

Feel free to leave a comment saying - quit wasting your time on those games and come visit my blog.

Hi - here I am.

I like to share pictures with you so that I can remember that I actually do have a life.

I've been sick. Like "supposedly" a sinus infection. But i laid in bed for 2 1/2 days unable to function. my MIL asked if I was pregnant. I responded with Dear God - I hope not.

G is super cute these days. I still want to scream when he gets dressed every morning though. he wants to wear his yellow chipmunk shirt everyday. And this morning he didn't want to wear pants.

My sister turned 40 and I took her to the circus and to see the Lorax (g liked it too)

My tub is still disgusting. but a new hot wheels toy equals a 6pm bath.

I'm totally addicted to this Draw Some game and would spend all day doing it if I could. It makes me laugh and laugh and laugh.

I still love pei wei. and rocky road ice cream. and target.

some things never change.

Blogging...

Everyday that I don't blog, it feels easier and easier to give up.

Then I think maybe I should just "mark all as read" and start over.

Then I wonder how often I would have to do that.

I feel selfish for writing words and thoughts and pictures here and not having time to read yours. or even reply.

Work is busy. I don't stop.

Chris got a new job. Woot.

G got new boots. Woot.

We are going to the circus this weekend. woot.

I miss you. sad woot.

What's new with you?

I haven't blogged in over a week. I HAVE to today because Mamarazzi linked to me and since she's sooooo popular - new people might come by to say hi. And they might actually want see something fancy.

I facetimed with my friend Steph and Maggie. It was super awesome. G loved showing Maggie everything and I enjoyed just talking to my friend. Facetime = awesome.

The new puppy - Sugar Cookie PrettyPaws is adorbs. and a puppy. that poops and pees and whines. It's like having a newborn. G LOVES her and she loves him - even though he carries her around like this:

and loves her like this:

We've had a nasty virus at our house. Chris was sick for 3 days. G was sick Mon - Tues. Felt better Wed - then had a fever (again) all last night.

I'm at work though because I do the work of 2 people (maybe 1.5) now and can't afford to get behind.

I'm letting my hair grow.

I finished a quilt top and have the backing ready to start.

I made supercute valetine treats copied from pinterest.

Chris bought a juicer.

And if you were my FB friend - you'd know all this. Because I'm way better about documenting every single freakin detail of my life on there.

I read this book and can't believe someone could be that dumb

That said - I enjoyed it. and I want to add smiley faces and kisses to every sentence.

I'm in the process of reading this book:

I think I like this one. It's different.

WOW - see what happens when I have to play catch-up.

A tale of 2 puppies

Chris and I are dog people. We haven't had any since G was born because of life. But We (chris) was ready to add another one to the house.

I sorta kinda was finally agreeing to it. But only to get Chris to shut up.

Chris has wanted a dog for months. And he would beg and plead and send me puppy links and pictures and emails and classifieds.

So the week before my birthday we went to a couple of shelters and didn't find "the one"

I wanted a lab because we had a boy lab before and I loved his face off. Chris didn't because it would get "too big"

We went again on my birthday and ended up adopting an unknown mix puppy. (um happy birthday)?

We named him Indiana Bones and called him Indy.

That was 10 days ago. In 10 days, we learned that he was a biter. and mean. and aggressive. And G and him could not be friends. Chris took him to the vet and the vet said he looked like a pit mix.

Then after 7 days of talking about whether Indy was the right fit for us, he lunged at G's face and tried to bite his cheek yesterday. Twice.

We took him back where we adopted him.

And went and picked up a pure yellow lab baby girl.

Yes - I feel like the worst doggy mother ever.

But I hope that she's "the one"

Life is Sad.

I lost a dear friend yesterday.

It was unexpected. She took her own life and I still don't know how to process it.

I met her almost 9 years ago. She worked at my first "grown-up" job.

She was fun and hilarious. and nice and a little mean. And oh so sassy.

And I'm going to miss her.

I... I'm unsure what to write or say or do. I don't know how to understand why.

I just keep thinking of the last emails, lunches, facebook banter, and I can't MAKE it make sense.

I hope she found peace. I will miss you, Jay Dawn.