Thursday, January 12, 2012

Change is coming

Lots of stuff has been going on with my job. I feel like the only time I write about work is when I'm anxious or upset. And that seems to be hitting home more often.

I still don't know what's going to happen with the error I made - I've been referring to it as the terrible awful in my head.

The terrible awful is weighing me down.

Sometimes I don't even know why I blog. I'm not a good writer. I haven't been good at nourishing those friendships I've made along the way.

I post less and less and less....

And then I don't know what to say. I take less pictures. I do less things. I honestly just try to make it through the day. And who wants to hear about my daily grind, when you are trying to make it through your own day?

There are a million things unsaid. Unsaid because I don't even know who reads these words anymore.

And a video of G singing, because he is just THAT cute. And just because.


video

brandy signature

25 comments:

MiMi said...

Friend, we love you and we like reading your words, no matter what they're about.
You are a busy woman, a working mother...you have a lot on your plate. We know that.
I want you to keep blogging because I know that you are a wonderful person and that if you don't get right back to your comments or visit our blogs every day, it's because you are busy. You are a great person and we know this. It's why we hang around.
You need a place to vent, blogging helps that.
Keep on keepin' on and focus on G and your work (the terrible awful will resolve itself one way or another soon, i'm praying) and things will be okay.
Now. Remember: You is kiiiiind, you is smaaaaaart, and you is important.

Mary Ruth Gilliam said...

This is life and life is not always cupcakes and rainbows. Blog what you feel, and the real friends and readers will always be here!

kristi said...

I love your blog! Don't go!

Meg said...

WTH??? Don't let life get you down like this! You're in a funk, but we all get in funks, right? So ride it out and do what you can, when you can. You've got lots of friends out here--wallow in your crap for a little bit and then start to climb back out of it. We'll all be here to offer a hand, even if it's just a virtual one!

Beth said...

*I* read this, and will continue to, even throughout awful stressful no-good days. :)

We all go through shyte at work. If everything in your life was continually hunky-dory, I would suspect that you were lying to us. And I appreciate that you aren't.

If you need to break from blogging, I won't judge ya.

Max's Mommy said...

I'm a bad commenter but I read. :o)

Good luck with your job stuff. Blech.

Kaylen said...

I feel your pain. I have a big issue at work right now, and had a really big issue at work last year, but I can't blog about it ever and it's REALLY hard-cause it's all consuming and it's hard to be light-hearted and entertaining and pretend life is just normal.
And then when life IS normal...it's hard to pretend to be interesting and entertaining! :)

Your blog almost always makes me laugh. I think you should feel free to take a break and just come on back here and there to make me laugh. (it's all about me)

Debby@Just Breathe said...

Cute video with Grayson. I am here for you and don't mind reading whatever you have to share. Hope everything turns out good for you.

Impulsive Addict said...

It's ok. We still read you so post whatever you want! We love you!

Keep your head up. Work will get better.

Kerri said...

even when u dont say anything i still check ur blog everyday!
just write what u know and dont worry about anyone else
love the G video!!

jacque4u2c said...

Aaaaaa. Yep you must be down if you can't see what a great impact you bring to others. I mean we would be devasted not to get any crazy nana stories, mole removing pics, fat ass friday ventures, g updates! Sheesh girl you got us addicted to your awesome personality and creativity! So, please hang in there with us! Hugs!

Dillypoo said...

Blog for YOU, not us. We're just here to eavesdrop at your invitation.

Hugs!

Fat in Suburbia said...

Your blog is one of my favorites. Work will get better so hang in there!

Artiafora said...

Keep your chin up girl!! Problems at work can really pull you down and I know it can feel like your whole world is crashing down. I despised my last job and it ended with very bad feelings that still make me cringe 3 1/2 years later. But, remember what REALLY matters, and that is your family, your precious G and your health. You kicked ass last year losing 20 lbs. and I know you will do well again this year.

You are doing fantastic! I read your blog and one other daily. I don't always comment, but I read and I love.

Janna said...

Hugs friend! If you ever need to talk...I am here for you!

Kate said...

I hope you are ok. I'll be praying for you and your work.

G is adorable as always. Too cute for words. :)

Samantha said...

I'll never stop reading, or commenting :) You're real...and that's what counts. I hope the work situation works out soon. Love you!

Cerise said...

I'm always here. I enjoy your candid posts and love that you are another normal human being :o) I'm sorry work is stressful at the moment! As a friend of mine is always telling me. This too shall pass. Hang in there!!

Heather said...

I couldn't open the video from my phone :( I don't think you need to do anything but be yourself. You are funny without even trying. I'm sorry to hear about the big awful at work. It sucks when an unsettling event is carried around in the back of your mind. It makes it hard to enjoy the good moments in life while it's left unresolved. I still consider you a good blog friend, your busy, you can't comment as often as you like, it's ok...your human. Time for you to go out with your girls and have drinks!!

Mamarazzi said...

i read. i am not always good about commenting, but i do read. i adore you and i love the things you have to say. post whatever you want, i will keep reading!

HUGGLES

Melissa said...

hey, girl. I look forward to your blog and read every new post. I was even telling some friends bout your "if he can say f-ing binky, he doesn't need one" comment, and one of my friends asked, "oh! Is that the I Don't Know Girl?" Because she reads you, too. And we didn't even know. how cool is that?

Do what makes you happy, sweetie.

Fiona said...

I agree with all the above!

Zookeeper Jess said...

Been there done that, too. Trying to decide where to go from here with my blog. Not really feeling it but not really wanting to give it up either and it seems like there is just less and less time to blog. When I do find the time, I find that I'd rather do other things instead. Read, catch up on shows, sit in silence. I used to LOVE blogging. I totally get you. However, you are still funny and you do still rock so I don't want you to leave ever.

DysFUNctional Mom said...

I am still reading. In the rare moments I get bloggy reading time, you are one of the blogs I make SURE to catch up on. Your personality comes through here and you are so honest and sincere. You don't post happy rainbow sunshine shit just to have a new post up on your blog. You're real. And I heart your face.

Melissa said...

I still read...
I might be a few days late...but I care!!
Hope everything works out! In the end, I know it will!

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...