Monday, February 13, 2012

Life is Sad.

I lost a dear friend yesterday.

It was unexpected. She took her own life and I still don't know how to process it.

I met her almost 9 years ago. She worked at my first "grown-up" job.

She was fun and hilarious. and nice and a little mean. And oh so sassy.

And I'm going to miss her.

I... I'm unsure what to write or say or do. I don't know how to understand why.

I just keep thinking of the last emails, lunches, facebook banter, and I can't MAKE it make sense.

I hope she found peace. I will miss you, Jay Dawn.



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25 comments:

Kimberly said...

I'm so sorry...she was nice and so funny! I too hope she has found peace.

Impulsive Addict said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of a friend. I wouldn't know how to handle that either. =(

MiMi said...

I've seen her comment on your fb statuses! :( So sad.

Cerise said...

I am so sorry sweetie. It's never easy to understand when someone takes their own life. I hope that she has found the peace she must have so desperately needed. Hugs!

Beth said...

Suicide is always difficult to process, and takes a lot of time and energy, so be patient with yourself. From the pic, she looks like a very fun gal, and I'm sorry for the loss of everyone who knew her.

DysFUNctional Mom said...

That's terrible...I'm so sorry.

Max's Mommy said...

I'm so sorry Brandy. I pray that you find the peace you need to deal with the loss.

KarmaKristin said...

I am sorry for your loss...this post broke my heart :(

Sheila said...

I'm sorry :( Big hugs!

Nichole said...

Hugs to you. I lost my mom the same way in 2006. It is a horrible thing to go through and you will never have all the answers. Hugs to you and her family.

Debby@Just Breathe said...

Brandy, I am so sorry for your loss. ((HUGS)) Suicide is very hard to process. I pray she has found peace. If there is anything I can do for you let me know. I will be praying for your comfort.

stephanie said...

I'm so sorry, I hope you and her family/friends find peace.

LYN said...

I just lost someone to suicide and then his girlfriend attempted it too..I am sorry you lost your friend Brandy...

Corinne said...

((HUGS))

Samantha said...

I'm sorry Brandy. I'll be praying for you and her family. I couldn't imagine having to go through something like that.

ShellieAndBrutus said...

I am so, so sorry.

Melissa said...

I'm so sorry, Brandy.

Kristin said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing someone is never easy and it may be harder when you don't understand the why.

A very close friend (and distant cousin) of mine took his life in 2002. On Feb. 27th it will be 10 years and so many of us are still wondering why. It is hard to deal with because it's a question we will never get the answer to. I miss him so much.

Peace to you and your friend.

Kate said...

I'm so sorry to hear this...my condolences.

The Lovely One said...

I'm sorry-- that's so sad. My thoughts are with her family, who are probably struggling to find their own peace now.

Katherine said...

Oh Brandy....my heart breaks for you and for her family. I'm so, so sorry you have to go through this.

Miss Angie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Artiafora said...

So sorry to hear of this tragic loss. I hope you work your way through it in a way that helps you to accept it.

Jenerally Speaking said...

oh my gosh, i'm so sorry to hear that!! praying for her friends and family right now!

Heather said...

Oh my god, I am SO very sorry Brandy. It's hard enough when it's natural causes, but even worse when they take their own life because then you analyze every past interaction with that person and wonder if there might not have been something you could have done...or if there were even clues that they were depressed or needed help. It's so, so sad. :( That picture you posted at the end of this entry was a great way to remember her by, she looks like she definitely was a fun person to be around.

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